Last night as I slept I saw my life slip away.  Then you were next to me.  I couldn't see your face but I knew that it was you.  Giving me a second chance.  I'll never really understand why I cannot comprehend your love and grace.  Why do I take pride in what I can't control.  How can I claim what isn't really mine.  What's the point to my ignorance?  The music that I see.  The colors in the air.  The breath in my lungs tonight.  Why do I fight with you sometimes?  So today I walk down this road again.  I understand now, some of what you said.  Sometimes I lack the strength I need.  But you come through,  every time I fail you're there to pick me up,  when I need it most.  When I've fallen hard you're there no questions asked.  You lift me up when I am down.  Please open my eyes.  Please help me understand.