Songwriters: Mushok, Michael; Wysocki, Jonathan; Lewis, Aarron; April, John;And it's been awhile  Since I could hold my head up high  And it's been awhile  Since I first saw you    And it's been awhile  Since I could stand on my own two feet again  And it's been awhile  Since I could call you    And everything I can't remember  As fucked up as it all may seem  The consequences that I've rendered  I've stretched myself beyond my means    And it's been awhile  Since I can say that I wasn't addicted  And it's been awhile  Since I can say I love myself as well    And it's been awhile  Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do  And it's been awhile  But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you    And everything I can't remember  As fucked up as it all may seem  The consequences that I've rendered  I've gone and fucked things up again    Why must I feel this way?  Just make this go away  Just one more peaceful day    And it's been awhile  Since I could look at myself straight  And it's been awhile  Since I said I'm sorry    And it's been awhile  Since I've seen the way the candles light your face  And it's been awhile  But I can still remember just the way you taste    And everything I can't remember  As fucked up as it all may seem to be, I know it's me  I cannot blame this on my father  He did the best he could for me    And it's been awhile  Since I could hold my head up high  And it's been awhile  Since I said I'm sorry      © MY BLUE CAR MUSIC; I.M. NOBODY MUSIC; WB MUSIC CORP.; GREENFUND MUSIC;