making time in a low rent highrise  no place to go downtown crushing crucifixion  particles aching harmful descent take a shot and hide  subway slam dance stale mattress slow throb bloating  freshly open grave barefoot beggar  knotted finger turning pages in a book descending  no noise the great trees fall  calmly through the window see backward elevation  faded spirit of the gold toothed whore  moon dances wondering how could this ever be  kicking the habit possesion in the flesh  loves made up melancholy kicking the habit  trip back and unleash all anger emerging from  the waterfall brakh? fork horse rear snorted downward  a vulgar desire playing cards conjured on fly blown  dimly lit round a room of shadows claw the side  phantom pinches waking from a dream half eaten candy  from some disordered heaven swirling tastes phornicate  rotted meat a nested virus feels eating dish aging  she sits alone in the worry shes created more time  put aside sorry i'm f***ed up inside  holy hatred kicking the habit