I died in a car crash two days ago  Was unrecognizable  When they pulled me from the gears  No one's fault, no one's bottle  No one's teenage pride or throttle  Our innocence is all the worse for fears  The other walked away alive  Arms wrapped now around his wife    My lover sits, the silent eye  In a hurricane of warmth and word  My mother trembles with the sobs  Whose absence seems absurd  My sister shouts to let her see  Through the cloud of crowd surrounding me  My colleagues call for silence in my name    I died in a car crash three months ago  They burned me until I glowed  And crumbled to a fine gray sand  Now I am nothing, everywhere  Several breaths of strangers' air  And all thoughts ever written in my hand  They plant my tree out in the yard  It grows but takes the winter hard    My lover holds a knife to wrist  Says tomorrow comes, hold on a while  My mother tosses in the sheets  And dreams me holding my own child  My sister plays our homemade tapes  Laughs as tears run down her face  My office door now wears a different name    I died in a car crash four years ago  My tree drinks melted snow  Just eight feet tall a pale and fragile thing  Bee stings beaches bright vacations  Sunburnt high-school graduations  A sparrow healing from a broken wing  This year a glimpse of second chances  Tiny apples on my tree's branches    My lover hears the open wind  And crawls blinking into the sun  My mother leafs through photographs  And thinks "yes she was a lovely one"  My sister can't decide her truth  Asks aloud what I might do  In a conference hall my brief efforts engraved    I died in a car crash  A lifetime ago it seems  Been a decade or two or three  They've just release a new design  Bars and bags front and behind  My fate now an impossibility  Safely packaged hurtling down  The highway hardly make a sound    My lover very much alive  Arms wrapped now around his wife