i wake up and start my everyday routine  of working hard at feeling sorry for myself  and after lunch i close my eyes  and wish to God that i could change  but when i wake up im so very much myself    and im a long way from believing  that im gonna be ok  such a long way from believing   that i'll escape this feeling that i hate     its a miracle that we are here today  with all the pain we put ourseleves through over nothing  cuz if you think hard  you'll know soon it will be ok  and you'll holding onto someone  holding onto someone    i wake up and start my everyday routine  wondering what in the world im gonna do  cuz things are falling into place  but i can not appreciate them  cuz if last i fell apart then this might do    and im a long way from believing  that im gonna be ok  such a long way from believing   that i'll escape this feeling that i hate     its a miracle that we are here today  with all the pain we put ourseleves through over nothing  cuz if you think hard  you'll know soon it will be ok  and you'll holding onto someone  holding onto someone    dimly lit my porchlight  i can see your eyes  they are staring into my face  staring into my face  i should trust what i see in them  i know the time is right  but still i'll take the easy road and wait    i've got to stop being scared  music time it isnt fair  i could die tomorrow or today  control is resting on my side   but knowing just would not be right  and thats not how i wanna live my life    and its miracle that we are here today   with all the pain we put ourselves through over nothing   cuz if you think hard  you'll know soon it will be ok  and you'll be holding on to someone  holding on to someone    its a miracle that we are here today  with all the pain we put ourselves through over nothing  cuz if you think ahrd  you'll know soon it will be ok   and you'll be holding on to someone  holding on