something's in the way  something's in the road  obstacles for me  something's in my throat  some things bother me  some things don't  other things might  my life's a sinking boat  don't let me drown, don't let me sink  i'm not gonna rot, i'm not gonna stink like rotting  playing happy games  keeping up a smile  keeping myself happy  just for a while  making ugly music  writing stupid words  why do you want to listen?  don't you get disturbed?  aren't you getting tired?  don't i make you sick?  isn't your stomach turning?  doesn't my face need to be kicked?  self-abuse, from me to you, to cover myself  to cover the truth, no self-worth,  i'm eating dirt, and i'll get smart  and eat my words  and eat my words  and eat my words  and eat my words  and eat my words