i thought you cared on our last day   i was wrong   no one will ever know about the dirty games   that we played.   ill take a plane out of here on monday.      now as the ferris wheel spins for me   i hate the view   the lonely carousel is boring   i run out to no sign of you      i never left you   you broke me from the start   you never meant to   tear my life apart   i never wanted all your sympathy   but thats all you'll get from me      and on your doorstep i left roses   for you to find   as this theme park finally closes   a smile, it lights up the sky      now i write letters in the dark   im afraid of who you are   im stupid, im selfish, im a mess   i have built an understanding   that when i wake   ill be forever alone in this bed.