I really don't know what I'm doing here   I really think I should've gone to bed tonight but...   "Just one drink   And there're some people to meet you   I think that you'll like them   I have to say we do   And i promise in less than than an hour we will honestly go...   Now why don't I just get you another   While you just say hello... "      Yeah just say hello...      So I'm clutching it tight   Another glass in my hand   And my mouth and the smiles   Moving up as I stand up   Too close and too wide   And the smiles are too bright   And I breathe in too deep   And my head's getting light   But the air is getting heavier and it's closer   And I'm starting to sway   And the hands all on my shoulders don't have names   And they won't go away   So here I go   Here I go again...      Falling into strangers   And it's only just eleven   And I'm staring like a child   Until someone slips me heaven   And I take it on my knees   Just like a thousand times before   And I get transfixed   That fixed   And I'm just looking at the floor   Just looking at the floor   Yeah i look at the floor...      And I'm starting to laugh   Like an animal in pain   And I've got blood on my hands   And I've got hands in my brain   And the first short retch   Leaves me gasping for more   And I stagger over screaming   On my way to the floor   And I'm back on my back   With the lights and the lies in my eyes   And the colour and the music's too loud   And my head's all the wrong size   So here I go   Here I go again...      Yeah I laugh and I jump   And I sing and I laugh   And I dance and I laugh   And I laugh and I laugh   And I can't seem to think   Where this is   Who I am   Why I'm keeping this going   Keep pouring it out   Keep pouring it down   Keeping it going   Keep pouring it down   And the way the rain comes down hard...   That's the way I feel inside...      I can't take it anymore   This it I've become   This is it like I get   When my life's going numb   I just keep moving my mouth   I just keep moving my feet   I say I'm loving you to death   Like I'm losing my breath   And all the smiles that I wear   And all the games that I play   And all the drinks that I mix   And I drink until I'm sick   And all the faces I make   And all the shapes that I throw   And alll the people I meet   And all the words that I know   Makes me sick to the heart   Oh I feel so tired...      And the way the rain comes down hard...   That's how I feel inside...