Visions of my childred wiping tear from open eyes   As they Kneel baside my coffin family say their last goodbyes   But ita the faces of my babies got me trippin thankin god for breath   Expressions filled with pain has got me strappin on the vest   And I know that I aint living right I hang on borrowed time   And this life's gome leave them bastards cause they pops has got to grind   Little mouths have got to eat so I hug them hit the streets   Spittin time with them and money got me feelin incomplete   And I aint scared of any mothafucka fight the flames of hell   But a child without his dad has got me hiding in my shell   Got me shikin in my boots to see them face this world alone   Are the strong enough to cope stuck in half a fuckin home   As I lay them down to sleep its all on me their soul to keep   And if I die before I wake I pray to   God he's up there waitin   With an army full of angels strapped with gats cause   I'm defying   Since I first became o father only fear I have is dying      This situation has got me losting sleep   I can not eat   I'm feeling weak the fear has got me   On my knees   The fear has got me      This situation has got me losting sleep   I can not eat   I'm feeling weak the fear has got me   On my knees   The fear has got me      [Blaze]   After all that I have ever done   And all that you will ever see for life   Death beyond the grave   How will they remember me   I only fear the lost of my voice   When its gone   The only noise is the pen   I'm a writer by choice   I can cut my tounge clean off   And smoke myself toothless   I still be on the mic   Spittin shit they call ruthless   The truth is   I go deaf dumb and blind in one ear   And be the dopes deaf dumb blind guy you ever hear   I ain't scared of dyin   Death I've been there   The pine box for many years   My return ain't bull ain't no reincarnation   Get lost in translation      This situation has got me losting sleep   I can not eat   I'm feeling weak the fear has got me   On my knees   The fear has got me      This situation has got me losting sleep   I can not eat   I'm feeling weak the fear has got me   On my knees   The fear has got me      [Monoxide]   Eyes open but I don't remember much   I try to focus but the light is bright as fuck   I go to sit up but I'm strapped and stuck   Stuck panic cant say nothin   Like my jaw is wired shut   How the fuck did get to where I am is still a mystery   My memories not assistin me   As I lay here in misery   Literally hopin some body would give me some kind of time   I'm I dead of alive   Is this a dream or a sign   Is there a chance I can find my mind and rewind   But paint me behind blinds and find somethin   Its like a game but nobody told me we were playin   And the fact that I don't know if I'm alive and sane   And inside my brain only one thing remains   The fear of no knowing paralyzes all most everthin   An second can be my last breath   And my best guess is nothin with on memories left   I'm sorry      This situation has got me losting sleep   I can not eat   I'm feeling weak the fear has got me   On my knees   The fear has got me      This situation has got me losting sleep   I can not eat   I'm feeling weak the fear has got me   On my knees   The fear has got me