i am split in two      sometimes i want to be a saint   i wanna wallow in my sleaze   one minute I'm a goddess   and the next a bitch, diseased   today i want to save the world   and tomorrow watch it burn   i come by my lessons painfully   then forget all that I've learned   when i want to      i want to i want to when i want to i want to      i know what i want i want everything   i know what i want i want nothing      i want to make you happy   then beat the smile from your face   i will become your downfall   and your saving fucking grace   i want to be a virgin   i want to fuck you 'til you bleed   i will worship you then spit in your face   i don't want who i need   but i want you      i want you i want you when i want you i want you      i know what i want i want everything   i know what i want i want nothing      i wish for happiness   when my mind becomes my hell   but sometimes there's comfort in my pain   'cause i know it so well   i want to slay the demons   that still haunt me day and night   but sometimes I'm grateful for my fear   it reminds me I'm alive   but i hate to      i hate to i hate to   but i hate to be afraid   no matter who you think you see   it's only ever half of me   inside my head is deafening   please help me      all i want is for this to stop i need all this to stop all i want is for this to stop i need all this to stop please god just make it stop god damn it never stops fuck me just make it€¦      and i pray   for some silence   why am i two I's?   the pain is slowly killing me   the war that others cannot see   it's what i go through   'cause i am      in two      i am split in two