Sometimes I break down and read into things that are not there   I can't convince myself your harmless actions has me without care   I know that I love you and for my sake as well as yours   I will do what I have to and hopefully find a cure      I tell myself that I must be strong   But there is something I knew all along   I need the antidote   To regain control      You had me worried in your letter   Didn't sleep for weeks   Kept thinking it was over I was just in way too deep   I try my best to see the cup half full and try to smile   Try to accept the past   We are only here for a while      I tell myself that I must be strong   But there is something I knew all along   I need the antidote   To regain control