So I'm waiting for this test to end,   so that lighter days can soon begin;   I'll be alone, but maybe more carefree,   Like a kite that floats so effortlessly;      I was afraid to be alone,   but now I'm scared that's how I like to be;   All these faces none the same,   how can there be so many personalities?      So many lifeless, empty hands,   so many hearts in great demand;   and now my sorrow seems so far away,   until I'm taken by these bolts of pain;       But I turn them off, and tuck them away,   until those rainy days that make them stay;   And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs,   and the words still ring, once here, now gone;      And they echo through my head everyday,   and I don't think they'll ever go away;   Just like thinking of your childhood home,   but we can't go back, we're on our own;      Ohh. . .      But I'm about to give this one more shot,   And find it in myself, I'll find it in myself;      So we're speeding towards that time of year,   to the day that marks that you're not here;   And I think I'll want to be alone,   so please understand if I don't answer the phone;      I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls,   until I can see nothing at all;   Only particles, some fast, some slow,   all my eyes can see is all I know;      Ohh. . .      But I'm about to give this one more shot,   And find it in myself, I'll find it in myself;      ( Do, do, do, do-do-do ) (x3)