Its hard to say if, I am alive      Disorder runs rampant in my mind   Loose thoughts slipping through my sad excuse for a grip   Random ideas bouncing around like a rubber ball in a rubber room   Uncatchable      My mind is going numb   My mind is going numb      I find myself tripping in your eyes      Delusions creeping up from behind   Sticking, probing, trying everything to falter me   These floating thoughts will trip me up   Make you knowing me, psychopathically, impossible      I have become   So mentally undone   I have become   My mind is going numb      You have tempted me forever      Suddenly, my thoughts come into mind   It seems, I've found the problem that has been plaguing me   I think of pain, I think of death   And then I find my mind specifically incredible      I have become, I have become, I have become   So mentally undone   I have become, I have become, I have become   My mind is going numb      Dead girls bloom   I my garden of thought   Spreading and decaying   To become one with the silt of my mind      I have become   So mentally undone   I have become   My mind is going numb      I have become   So mentally undone   I have become   My mind is going numb