It begins with a dark glowing ember    Something black burning its way out of me    Searing the flesh    Pain is the only thing I feel    Scars all I see       Oh no the fires burning my insides again    What can I do to silence my desire tonight    Flames consuming reason    Leaving only ashes left    You will catch me regretting my decision       I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear    I can't just close my eyes       I know that    It's killing me    And it’s poisoning the best in me    What I see I don’t want to believe    So let me tell you more    About the lies I lead       This is how I’ve chosen to douse the flames    Broken teeth replace blackout memories    Wreckage from the past haunts me, shakes me to the bone    I know its over but I can’t go home tonight       But after this I feel as empty as before    Feel the pain and yet I’m still begging for more    Masochistic nihilistic urging backward thought    My life’s a mess and I cant find a way to fix it       I know that    It's killing me    And it’s poisoning the best in me    What I see I don’t want to believe    So let me tell you more    About the lies I lead       Calling calling out    The darkest reaches of my soul are riddled with self doubt    Crawling crawling out    My will to fight will more than suffice when others would lay down.       It’s only as dark as you make it       I know that    It's killing me    And it’s poisoning the best in me    What I see I don’t want to believe    So let me tell you more    About the lies I lead