It's been ten minutes since   a thought of this   has made its way and left its mark on me   and in ten minutes more   the same thing will   start happening and frame this novelty   and when this cycle ends   I'll start again   and bring about the possibility   the thought of looking for    and finding more   has never been as hard as this for me      I found a picture of the two of us    and seeming like it was a week ago   I thought of everything   it should have been   and nothing was as far as I would go      and when the cycle did come to an end   I thought about the possibility   the thought of looking for   and finding more   has always been the hardest thing for me      I'll wait a thousand ten minutes   since when has it ever been different    I'll spend a lifetime of learning   since when did I remember anything at all       where did I leave her name and her number    where does she work she told me before    why do I find it hard to remember   now why do I find it hard to ignore    how do I know when this will be over    another ten minutes went by