Is it wrong to talk to myself even when there's nobody else?   I'm just checkin' out that I'm not gone under the water   Thrown on the beach like a seal ready for slaughter      Can't you understand that the way things were planned   It never worked out so I would just went crazy   I took to the drink, like something says it's maybe      I ain't got no excuse and that's really the news   Got nothing else to say, that it's my way, it's always my way   I seem to be runnin' away so often      I'll try anything once and that's the way we should be   But it's always the same gettin' caught up again in a habit, a habit   But I just can't shake off the way it always turned out      Can you understand it's the way I choose to be?   Everything seems so easy this way but I'm goin' under fast   Slippin' away, am I so crazy?