(Imbedded in fear, I stand and face the oppressor   Death drawn by my side, the taste of revenge invades me   The eyes of uncertainty, the slow drawn breath of those about to die   I will not keep death nor let it remove me   I will stay strong and focused on vengeance   The blade that is life shall detonate the rivers of blood   Severed enemies cries of killing horror   I will be redeemed   I will strive through   I will kill those who seek to kill me)      This time   I won't   Take my   Life for granted   I'll find myself asking   Why god must hate me   Why I feel   Like I should not have   Survived - This   And what is yet to come:      Why - Does god forsake me?   At - Look down on me   Night - Make me fear   Nightmares still   Inside my head      You never wanted me to stay   You almost took it all away   It's not my - Time yet   I still have one more chance to prove   This time I won't let you down   It's not my, my time yet      Why - Does god forsake me?   At - Look down on me   Night - Make me fear   Nightmares still   Inside my head      Nightmare still inside my head   You never wanted me to stay   You almost took it all away   I can't live, I can't die   It's not my fucking time