I don't want to have to build this   I don't want to have to fit in   I don't want to have to need someone    But I do..      I don't want to have to attract boys   I don't want to have to be here   I don't want to have to eat to fill a hole   But I do..      But it's better than nothing at all   But it's better than nothing at all      I don't want to have to be angry at you   I don't want to have to blame it on my father   I don't want to feel sick around you   But I do..      I don't want to ever fall in love   I don't want to feel so insecure   I don't want to have to write this to explain    Still I do..      This feels better than nothing at all...    This feels better than nothing at all...