From the scrapes and bruises    To the familiar abuses    I'll kick and scream but it never changed anything       I could spill my guts out    Wearing my best little girl pout    And I almost missed it    But nobody said that this was gonna be easy       This is not the man I hoped to be    And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding    I don't know how to word it    I just started to deserve it    And all my, all my faces are alibis    And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be       Most times it all comes out wrong    I don't know the words but I'll hum along    There's nothing famillar here anymore    to anyone or anything left to feel alive       And I still taste that sickness    And it makes me crazy without it at best    But I'm in the same place I used to be    But I'm trying harder not to be       This is not the man I hoped to be    And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding    I don't know how to word it    I just started to deserve it    And all my, all my faces are alibis    And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be       So what am I? What am I? So What Am I?       And all my, all my faces are Alibis    This is not the man I hoped to be    And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding    I don't know how the words go    I just started not to say no       Don't want it, Don't get it    I know you won't regret it    Don't surface, Don't surface    And I feel so damned worthless    Another day is gone and all my faces are alibis    all ym faces are alibies       and me, I'm half the man I wanted to be