I don't want to turn around   And find I'd got it wrong   Or that I should have been laughing all along      You're what keeps me alive   You're what's destroying me   Do you want the truth or do you want your sanity?      You were hell and everything else was just a mess   I found I'd stepped into the deepest unhappiness      We get back, I bleed into you   Thank God that I don't love you   All of that's behind me now   Still seems to be above you      I don't know   I don't know whether I ever knew you   But I know you   I know you never knew me      I don't know   I don't know whether I ever knew you   But I know you   I know you never knew me   Do you want to?      Hope doesn't serve me now   I don't move fast at all these days   You think you've understood   You're ignorant that way      I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry   I can't be canceled out like this   We had to kill too much   Before we could even kiss      I don't know   I don't know whether I ever knew you   But I know you   I know you never knew me      I don't know   I don't know whether I ever knew you   But I know you   I know you never knew me      Do you want to? Do you want to?   Do you want to? Do you want to?   Do you want to? Do you want to?