I spent my years isolated   Couldn't live with myself   I was trouble as a young kid   My tears didn't help   Very depressing and it was evident   I'd fade to the deep   All alone like these four walls came at me   Barracaded cuz my mind state   I just wanted to die   Never happiness   Just sad time living a lie   Rater leave me   I was suicidal   Slittin' my wrist   Mamma thinking I was crazy   Like use some sense   And on them days I was feeling   I was paining inside   It wasn't me   It was my inner feeling coming alive   I remember waking up like I was going to school   Left me standing in the hospital   Locked in this room   Put away   I was a troubled kid losing my mind   Fallin' short   Of what they expected from me everytime   So don't fault me if you meet me   And I look to be strange   I'm just mad that the sunshine dies in the rain      [Chorus]   Sunshine to the rain   When it comes it goes again   Even when the story ends   Just turn the page and begin again   Sunshine on cloudy days   Don't hate me I'll never change   Thankful I was made this way   Your sunshine for cloudy days      Now I was raised in a neighborhood   With half of a dime   If you was real it was understood   It showed in your eyes   Every corner had a different hustle   Sprawled on your face   Drug wars   Growin' up raw cuz violence the case   .... had to move along   Quiet it's kept   Spoken words got you dealt with   So ride with yourself   I'm a juvenile   They telling me get down for they wealth   No getting high   Cuz when you gettin' high   You needing some help   As far as help   Mine was middle though   You know how that go   Psychologically   I deal with demons talkin' in codes   Hopefully, I'll get to meet Jesus   Somewhere on this road   Sick of hearing people screaming in my head saying no   Better of if I was dead   Cuz they killing me slow   All in all it's just a part of my life   Watching the show   Ain't nothing never came to niggaz sleep   Except for a dream   It's like a movie with the ending credits etched in the screen      [Chorus]      I prayed my last days of sunshine   Just die in the rain   Kinda selfish   But I know that dying   Eases the pain   Heartfelt words   Spoken hurt   Provided the frame   For the picture I done painted for the master to explain   So I leave behind my testimony   Witness to give   Far from holy   But this matrimony provided the script   To live on   And live by   Grow up and grow on   Get on and get by   So forth and so on   And this here's the last days   I can hear the horns singin'   I can see the red sky   I can hear the drum beating   I seen the dead die   How long will they mourn Jesus   At least I'm saved by my scriptural warn readings   And while leaving you here   Believe what you believe in   But you don't want to not believe   Believe in seeing   Don't take this here too personal   Cuz I'm just speaking   This is my family on my mind And that's my reason      [Chorus]