When I close my eyes all I see are visions of you   And when I open my eyes   Your absence holds me down   I try but I can't shake myself loose   I can't command my brain   All I do is shrink and think of one thing   I'm sitting alone beside me   I'm digging a hole inside myself      All I want is the place I think I've found   When I look into your eyes   All I know is that I'm tired of the world around me   Please don't ignore me      Dedicated, here I am thinking of you   With everything within me   You'll never see me, never feel me   Never know these thoughts of mine   In my mind you're always there, always smiling   Always reaching out to me   The days go on with heartache,   The days go on with emptiness      All I want is to somehow matter to you   Even if all else rejects me   All I know is that I'm hammered by the world   Around me   Please don't destroy me      I burn down time trying to find a way   To get through to you   I'm standing in line for a hand out   That will never come but still   I don't care   Feeling like, looking like -naked   Here is everything I am   Laid out exposed wide eyed unable to forget you