If I could make it to my funeral, I'd scan the crowd for you   While all the speeches spill my life as suicide   I'd buy a ticket from the scalper just to show I hate the system   And you soon know I didn't really care at all      Now I'm alive      So you can watch me from the heavens as I rain down on your head   Tell me what you've always wanted and I'll give you love instead   And when I wake up from this dream, it's you that I'll regret   If I have to break a promise to you, I'll break my hand instead      You thought that I'd put down my pen but instead   I put down the pills that keep me from the edge of breaking down    in the back of this hotel room   I saw you standing in the corner of court   With a fist full of evidence that led to this    whole situation of me and my plea for insanity      I'll take you on   Now I'm alive   I'll take you on      So you can watch me from the heavens as I rain down on your head   Tell me what you've always wanted and I'll give you love instead   And when I wake up from this dream, it's you that I'll regret   If I have to break a promise to you, I'll break my hand instead      If I could make it to my funeral,    I'd smile to the crowd and say to dry your tears cause I'm finally alive      So you can watch me from the heavens as I rain down on your head   Tell me what you've always wanted and I'll give you love instead   And when I wake up from this dream, it's you that I'll regret   If I have to break a promise to you, I'll break my hand instead