[ Intro ]   Sometimes I write about something, that like something I went through   Or something my people went through   And I felt like they needed some motivational shit   And it usually ends up going something like this...      ( Chorus )   My first day, without you in my life   Things felt strange, a bit deranged   Even so, I hope you're doin okay   Take it slow, you just never know... ( just never know, oh!)   Yo, you just never know... nooo (just never know, oh!)   You just never know... nooo (just never know, oh!)      ( Verse 1 )   My systems caught in conniption, stomach in knots   Feedin for my medicine, overcoming addiction   The first step is quittin, nah the first steps admittin   I got a problem, I need help, this is something I can't beat myself   I almost felt like I can't be cured   Rehab won't take me cuz I ain't insured   Layin in the bath tub, shakin like a new born   Searchin for the courage it'll take for me to move on   I've been livin life like this way too long   Beggin God please, bring me home   I stopped before, three or four days   Always end up back in the same place   People call me a junkie, dope fiend   How they gonna judge me, they don't even know me   Lights off, wanna be left alone, I'm tryin to enjoy the methodone   Put a Jimi Hendrix record on, and excuse me while I kiss the sky   Dosed off, woke up, sick to my stomach, ran to the bathroom   Started to vomit, the methodone wore off and the withdrawal started   That first day was the hardest...      ( Chorus )      ( Verse 2 )   Stayed strong, endured the rough weather   I ain't fully recovered but I'm doin much better   I can keep my food down to shakes and calms   They lowerin the doses of methodone   I eat V's and blow lots of dro   It's like chewin gum when you're tryin not to smoke   Keep my mind occupied, calm my nerves   It's not the same high, deep inside I...   Just want one more but I can't turn back this week for it   But I done made it, almost a month   With just a couple of V's and I blew some blunts   But that weed and gonna make me OD   That other shit was gonna kill me   Six weeks, and everything seem so clear   Before I knew it, time flew and I was clean for a year   Can't believe something started off socially   Something I almost allowed to take over me   Days went by and it was sixteen months   And I swear to God I didn't fall off once   I, feel like a brand new guy and I'm definetly livin a brand new life   Some days I still resist the thirst but none's worst than the first (believe   that)      ( Chorus )      ( Verse 3 )   Two years and I ain't touched it   Got a lot done, I been so productive   Rebuilt, I was so constructive   Can't believe I was so self destructive   Got a good job and I make big bucks   Went to the lot and got a new pick up   Got a brand new crib and a brand new kid   I think anybody can quit if I did   If you wanna quit, get up and go get the shit   Walk straight to the toilet, drop it, flush it, fuck it, fight it   Just resist it and if this helps then just keep listenin   When you start slippin I'll send you another one   Sonny, wasup?, we just saved another one   I know it's so hard like there's no God   But through him you're able to go so far   Hey, I don't wanna sound corny   I'm just like you either hungry or horny   Seems as though we get hooked so easily   Quitting becomes an impossibility   I ain't sayin treat your body like a church   Just don't let dope put your body in a hearse   The streets inside you, you just gotta search   And know that no day be harder than the first      ( Chorus )      [ Outro ]   Yo, all my people, goin through they thing   Whatever they thing may be   Just know, God got his hands on you   And he'll grant you the serenity   To change the things you can't   And you can change that, aight   Hold me down and I'ma hold you down... one