How far have I driven myself from that security I once tasted?   I thought I was so much closer to grasping certainty   Waiting for what I've seen to be taken away from me   Inside I hide alone and undefined   A fear breeds as I'm not received leaving a lack of trust   While wanting and wishing for a hand of purity to hold   As you are always pushing me you are always pushing me   We're just wasted prayers without holding onto your embrace   and realizing life is worth living   Accepting acceptance   Time after time these wounds stand to breath again   Help me to stand higher   With hope for tomorrow and confidence to live for today