I've lost my voice   I've said all I have to say   You're thick as porcelain   as clear as cellophane.   i miss the nervous shake   and miss the way it hurt   the way it killed to think that I had You first...   i had u first      So then I force a smile   I take the stage   now my knees are weak try to concentrate   I'm loosing air with every single breathe that I take..   I look into your eyes   see the chemicals, you're the whitest white   you've become a ghost   You're dead to me so why can't I let u go?      The phone is like a knife   I drive into my ear   I had a love affair   with distance and with fear   The bus is like a hearse   driving me from her   she's as black as white   she the perfect curse   She's the perfect curse      Chorus      And if the walls had eyes, we would never lie, you could come down on me.      And if u saved my life, how could I survive, you're the one that made me      this way