That's right I got problems and personal issues   Stories that'll make ya, eyes tear and wet tissue   It's true, I'm Madd like the Rapper   I'm so upset I gotta put it up in my rap before I snapper      After the things I've seen from Atlanta to Queens   To the mean streets of Brooklyn when I was a teen   Back and forth to the Islands, scream when I left   But adapted, and still my dreams haven't left      I only hung with the crack kids we not the best   Me and the ruffest ruffnecks went chest to chest   Now my best friend's locked up north I wont rest   'Til I let him live his dream threw me and I confess      That even though both our hearts was dark his was darker   Best believe when shit got spark he was the sparker   And when the block got hot he was the fire starter   And if I had beef my nigga Roger was a martyr      I wonder, how certain people come in my life   I wonder, why'd I get in so many fights   I wonder, why sometimes things just don't go right   Why I gotta live this life, hey hey      I wonder, how certain people come in my life   I wonder, why'd I get in so many fights   I wonder   Why I gotta live this life, hey hey      Yo, you one of the most important people in my life   They called you Dice but I called you cousin   We was buggin' 'cause I figured that we both had something in common   You loved to chat reggae music and I loved rhymin'      But still they ain't call you Dice for nuttin'   I seen you shoot with the wiliest cats and leave them with nothing   Somethin' must have pleased that bluffer in you   To make you wanna take dough from those tougher than you      Threw out school we made money together   When you was on the floor shootin', I was the side better   And yo we cleaned out them cats and took the scraps   But you wasn't a ruff cat and cats knew that      I knew eventually them thugs would try to hurt you   If I was there, I'd never let nobody hurt you, it's hurtful   I knew they wouldn't let you take the money and run   That's why I shoulda came when you told me to come      I wonder, how certain people come in my life   I wonder, why'd I get in so many fights   I wonder   Why I gotta live this life, hey hey      I wonder, how certain things don't go right   I wonder, why'd I get in so many fights   I wonder   why I gotta live this life, hey hey      Yo, it was June sixth '96, graduation night   Made it threw the school swish shootin' dice gettin' in fights   I even sparked a riot, 'til the school got quiet   And dismiss just got tired of usin' my fists      We had some shit like knife pipes bottles and sticks   Can't forget them 380's, nine's and 22's   Best believe, many dudes was paid in my crew   We made a name for ourselves boy I've seen some drama      Seems my momma never dreamed she'd go threw so much trauma   Comma, pause you ask about cops and laws   Well that shit don't exist when you black and poor   So we broke 'em, but at that night my heart got broken      Choken on the weed smoke drinkin' rum and gettin' open   Not to mention, never a big drinker I'm a thinker   But I'm thinkin' hey dis my night, pass me more liquor   Fight breaks out, I'm just too nice to get in it      But my brother got stabbed and I missed it   Word up, its crazy   why I gotta live this life, hey hey   (Wonder)      I wonder, why sometimes things just don't go right   I wonder, why certain people come in my life   I wonder, yeah   Why I gotta live this life, hey hey      I wonder, why sometimes things just don't go right   I wonder, why'd I get in so many fights   I wonder   Hey, why I gotta live this life, hey hey      I wonder, why sometimes things just don't go right   I wonder, why I gotta live this life   I wonder   Why I gotta live this life, ay ay uh ay      That's right   Your life