I haven't felt so alive in years    The sun is shining down on me    My eyes are welling up with tears    Tears of joy, tears of ecstasy       Emotions I once kept concealed    Now flow freely like a river    Life's great mysteries revealed    Love's great promise delivered       CHORUS:   I hate my life I want to die    I was just pretending all this time    A mask I wear so I don't bare    My soul to the cold, harsh world out there    Try to prevail but only fail    Each time on a grander and grander scale    My life is worthless and so am I    I hate my life I want to die       The landscape rises to meet my feet    The sky descends to fill my arms    For once I finally feel complete    For once I know I can't be harmed       All I know is light and love    I feel that I could live forever    While others' troubles seem to grow    I have no problems whatsoever       CHORUS      The epiphany that came to fall    Finally helped me reconcile    What I felt wasn't joy at all    All this time it was just denial       CHORUS