on the sunday after the mason dance   it's the one day I can remember when   I felt so pure and really at peace with myself   I was in love, the sun sang down victorious      but the truth is I have no faith in happiness   it turns to fear, draws the devils near   so I jumped the fence   and went out west      abilene   got a sales job as a pharmaceutical rep   lived out of hotels, rental cars and a stowable bag   I drove all day from hospital pacing and clinic sweats   I drove all night I couldn�t ever sleep now anyway      I tried, but the old devils, they found me in my room   I hid under the covers and cried out as they tore off my sheets   so I went east      vietnam   I'm long gone   I'm up the river   way past mekong      but the old devils, they found me in my hut   they poured through the windows, they cornered me   and I cried out, to no one   I give up.