Baby, I was not the one   I guess you know that now   But I kept you real distracted for a while      I look back and nothing much   Ever comes to mind   Sometimes I can picture half a smile      And we were thick as thieves   Hung on each others sleeves   Kissing all the time      But if I ever loved you   Shouldn't I be crying?   Shouldn't I be cracking up   And drinking all the time?      Yeah, if I ever loved you   How come I feel alright?   How come the nights are so easy   And the mornings look so bright?      I try to figure what has gone   I seem to look the same   Maybe there's a tightness around my eyes      Sometimes the evening comes   I think I miss someone   And then I realize      That if I ever loved you   Shouldn't I be crying?   Shouldn't I be cracking up   And drinking all the time?      Yeah, if I ever loved you   How come I feel alright?   How come the nights are so easy   And the mornings look so bright?      And love, it can make your world   Bring you alive but I wasn't dead before   So baby, you ain't hard to survive      Maybe I was not the one but I had to try   And in the end there's no such thing   As wasted time      I was the interim   Between nothingness and him   So how is that a crime?      But if I ever loved you   Shouldn't I be crying?   Shouldn't I be cracking up   And drinking all the time?      Yeah, if I ever loved you   How come I feel alright?   How come the nights are so easy   And the mornings looks so bright?