It's not that I don't care, I know it's here somewhere   But it's more than I can bare to take   I lie awake at night, I never win the fight   It's an addiction I can't shake      It's overbearing me   And growing, flowing, showing      I surrender forever   I fold, I played the losing card   I'm under, it's over   I give it up, it's all too hard      It's not that I'm unsure, I've heard it all before   But I can't help wanting more to keep   You just don't understand the way I really am   It's all I ever can be      But underneath it all   I'm breaking, waking, shaking      I surrender forever   I fold, I played the losing card   I'm under, it's over   I give it up, it's all too hard      And now I face it all   I'm falling, crawling, stalling      I surrender forever   I fold, I played the losing card   I'm under, it's over   I give it up, it's all too hard      I surrender forever   I fold, I played the losing card   I'm under, it's over   I give it up, it's all too hard