From the scrapes and bruises   To the familiar abuses   I'll kick and scream but it never changed anything     I could spill my guts out   Wearing my best little girl pout   And I almost missed it   But nobody said that this was gonna be easy     This is not the man I hoped to be   And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding   I don't know how to word it   I just started to deserve it   And all my, all my faces are alibis   And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be     Most times it all comes out wrong   I don't know the words but I'll hum along   There's nothing famillar here anymore   to anyone or anything left to feel alive     And I still taste that sickness   And it makes me crazy without it at best   But I'm in the same place I used to be   But I'm trying harder not to be     This is not the man I hoped to be   And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding   I don't know how to word it   I just started to deserve it   And all my, all my faces are alibis   And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be     So what am I? What am I? So What Am I?     And all my, all my faces are Alibis   This is not the man I hoped to be   And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding   I don't know how the words go   I just started not to say no     Don't want it, Don't get it   I know you won't regret it   Don't surface, Don't surface   And I feel so damned worthless   Another day is gone and all my faces are alibis   all ym faces are alibies     and me, I'm half the man I wanted to be