When I awoke  a man wearing black is between my legs  tongueing my vagina  lapping me like a thirsty dog...    Through my revulsion  I feel some mild pleasure  then the man wearing black stands  pulling my hair from his teeth  but I noticed nothing dangled between his legs  He was a female down there-  and from his vagina came a toungue  followed by many fingers...    I awoke again  this time I'm chained to an altar  There are six women wearing habits around me  and they are cutting their own throats...    Through my revulsion  I feel some mild pleasure  then they fall upon me  soaking me in arterial blood  I thought they were dead  but then they stood  the gashes in their throats yawning  and from each gaping tear comes a penis  followed by many tongues    I entered their world not to worship  but to feel pleasure through the darkness of revulsion  and as I lay down to masturbate  among the gore of many animals  I realize I am a woman  but when I entered their world  I WAS A MAN!