Hold me underneath the water   Rinse me till I'm clean   Stretch my skin and scratch the surface   I promise I won't bleed      I never wanted to be born in all of this    Everytime I hear your voice it makes me sick   Beaten by an open hand, I raise a fist   I got to find a way to cope with all of this      Close the door and lock me out   I'll throw away your key   On my own in the cold   There's no one left but me      I never wanted to be born in all of this   Everytime I hear your voice it makes me sick   Beaten by an open hand, I raise a fist   I got to find a way to cope with all of this      I try not to cry      This is not just temporary   Fear and denial remain   I'm now just twice as aware   Of the abuse and the pain      This is not what I want to be   But you expected more from me   This is not what I want to be      I tried not to cry