Look at my life and   Tell me I'm happy   If you could do it with a straight face   Then you'd be lying   Cause theres this hole deep   Deep down inside me   And its been growing    Since the day I heard you screaming      This is the very first and last time   I doubt the choices that I'm making   I lost my head again    but I'm working hard just to turn a dime   Blow it all on drowning out my mind   This is a dead end situation   I need to find my way out      All my life   Has been a never ending nightmare   And at some point I left behind   Everything that I believed in   Or maybe this is as good as it gets      What if you've always been the problem   The root of the dysfunction I've been through   And I just keep standing by you side   Even though its killing me to      This is the very first and last time   I doubt the choices that I'm making   I lost my head again    but I'm working hard just to turn a dime   Blow it all on drowning out my mind   This is a dead end situation   I need to find my way out      All my life   Has been a never ending nightmare   And at some point I left behind   Everything that I believed in   Or maybe this is as good as it gets      All my life   Has been a never ending nightmare   And at some point I left behind   Everything that I believed in   Or maybe this is as good as it gets