the meaning my my life is all but gone   i have been betrayed by my own   a rollercoaser ride of emotions   pounding through the chambers of my heart   exploiting me like an open book   as i speak i can feel a tormenting pain within myself   creating an un-nerving disorder   controlling me body and soul until i am none   i fear the end   growing stronger every second increasing every day   there's no way of knowing how much more i can take   will there be a solution to this pain that i feel   wake up mother fucker cause you know the deal   wake up mother fucker cause you know the deal bitch   visions of anger   emanate from my mind   thoughts of the past are making me blind   there's a light that burns right before my eyes   i'll never know if all of thise lies   will come back to haunt me in the end   here i thought that you were a friend   someone special within my heart   you've taken my soul you've torn it apart   i can't seem to resist the power you possess over me   its ripping and digging draining me of my sanity   feel for me i'm in pain   open your eyes stand tall be a believer within your self   open your eyes stand tall you've gotta see the light   open your eyes stand tall you can do this on your own   open your eyes open your eyes to this   times of need you weren't there for me   fallen to the edge of my sanity   a train ride headed to no destination   living a life filled with procrastination   time ran out the end had to come   regrettably so it had to be done   living for you was all that i had   scars on my brain i'll never be the same again   depression breaks through like a juggernaut   take a look inside and watch me rot   a lifeless shell that's about to break   just wanna see how much i can take   how much i can take   how much i can take