Just one more dance, embrace the last chance   Forty days till the doc delivers the stern glance   Not in my hands, not like I planned   20 cc’s unleashed on this man   The colors of the reverse,   reversed for old time’s sake   A prism or a prison; a decision left to make   It’s the gift and it’s the curse   Fear the worst when the vessels burst   In a limo or in a hearse, down by the church   Six months left became six months later   A tattered passerby praying for a favor   Choking on the smoke, the second hand is ticking   Got a head full of coke and   there’s a small child kicking   It’s not enough to be humble in a   world full of fingers   The sound still lingers,   sleeping with a dead ringer   Least she’s still by my side; the knot stayed tied   Didn’t wanna make you cry, but inside….      I’m so lonely   I’m sick so won’t you hold me   The teachers always told me   Be careful what you don’t see   Don’t wanna bring you down   It’s easier to drown   But wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you      The last time the past crossed my mind   I was passing thru a crowded room   that turned into a cemetery   Stone faces planted in my head   I hate the words that were said   I’m gonna fake it for the last time   I’m replaced by this body in my bed   Fade to red, they left me for dead   Take a guess; forget the rest in the shed   Books I read said dread a suicide with lead   Here’s an once of freedom, take it   down, it’s all the same   Remain bold and shameless, signal, change lanes   Back to the church, father please forgive my sins   It’s not my fault, release your talons   Six gallons to the brim   And stop your screaming, it’s not over yet   The best part’s still coming,   running circles round the room   The nurses, curses, going black,   pulse pumping, chest thumping   I’m running, I’m running, I’m running, I’m running      I’m so lonely   I’m sick so won’t you hold me   The teachers always told me   Be careful what you don’t see   Don’t wanna bring you down   It’s easier to drown   But wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you   It grows slowly   The sickness is unfolding   Now everyone is scolding   These hands are not for holding   I wanna leave this town   I wouldn’t make a sound   But wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you      The third time’s the charm   Guess it couldn’t harm   I’ve had enough of this charade   It’s pitiful the way my mind replays   What could’ve, should’ve, would’ve been   But I can’t change a thing   Would I really even want to   It all worked out so perfectly   Hit 11, took a trip and went to heaven   Brought back the key like Emery   Then gradually I faded from your memory   Like a Gemini who touched the sky   I’m a bird; I’m an eagle on his perch   One last trip to the church   Oh look, it’s an open casket   There’s a smile on my face   Some flowers, some white lace,   a vase, a black dress   Wait a second, that’s you, you’re a mess   It wasn’t supposed to be like this   The pistol’s on the chest   I could’ve been the best   But when you’re dead, there’s nothing more   And there’s nothing less      I’m so lonely   I’m sick so won’t you hold me   The teachers always told me   Be careful what you don’t see   Don’t wanna bring you down   It’s easier to drown   But wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you   It grows slowly   The sickness is unfolding   Now everyone is scolding   These hands are not for holding   I wanna leave this town   I wouldn’t make a sound   But wait a second, no I never wanna hurt you