The new year was cold and I lost a friend   Driving in his car he put a gun up to his head   While others have since been replaced   By my enemies with a familiar face      It felt better when I wasn't alone   It felt better when I wasn't at home   It felt better when I wasn't alone   It felt better when I wasn't at home      This place became a burden   A place I had outgrown   Time and distance made strangers   Out of everyone I know   More desperate than I'd like to admit   More weak than I see fit   More desperate than I would like to admit      It felt better when I wasn't alone   It felt better when I wasn't at home   It felt better when I wasn't alone   It felt better when I wasn't at home      Well I'll bury myself if no one wants to help   I'll bury myself   You lose one friend   You lose all friends   And you lose yourself      It felt better when I wasn't alone   It felt better when I wasn't at home   It felt better when I wasn't alone   It felt better when I wasn't at home      Whoever said you've got to get dead to get ahead   It felt better when I wasn't at home