so far so good   you're coming to the bend at the end of the road   you put a hand to the belly that's foreign more   with every day like an oversize load      and you're thinking about clouds the color of fire   and the scent of an orange peel   the way Mt. Shasta explodes into windshield view   and your hands steady on the wheel      so far so good   coffee motel coffee diner coffee go on   styrofoam is drying like the tears that once did flow   starting 10 o'clock and ending at dawn      and you can't go back but you're going back   and you don't know what you'll say   you've got half-formed sentences   explanations for a life half-broken away   and they just may   they'll take you in their arms and then take out their knives   so you drive on thinking      so far so good   but you can't go on much longer like this you know   you're all alone in this world no that's not true   the nice Christian lady told you so      she was handing out pamphlets by the clinic door   saying "Jesus knows what you've been through   take the Savior into your heart my child   there's love waiting for the both of you"      well you don't believe but you have to believe   it's still crumpled there in your back seat   were you the hero or the worst kind of coward back there   putting pavement back under your feet   couldn't stand the heat   couldn't stand the thought of ghosts with a negative age   turn the page   OK      so far so good   you try to sing along to the radio   but it's not your language not your song   it's from some other time ago      and you're thinking about how someone died that day   the you that was so carefully planned   but then again maybe this life is like a sleeping mountain   waking up to shape the land      calm calm let it come let it come back to you   calm calm breathe on out you know you know what to do