deeper indeed.   they're digging.   and all that is intruiging.   will be exposed.   for better or for worse.   will be   disclosed.      once you've spilled your oceans   reconciled dramatics.   think you might sleep better   if i held your head upright.      would you be of any help   when the walls come closing in.   choking in the pillows   with strangers piling up in here.      they're scratching at the doorsteps   and breathing in my neck.   my fingers trapped motionless,   i'm waiting to be fed upon.      why think of escaping   whilst i'm held confined   i linger on those lips   with bruises on my fingertips      i've been asking for too much   clutching to desires   and as they come and call for me,   i don't think that i really care      my feet will not budge an inch   and there's no way i can scream   apathy takes it's stranglehold   twists and turns,   i'm blindfold      chasing sleepless nights away again.   closing all those doors on me again.      if i dare close these eyes,   paralyzed, yet restless.   won't they drag me further   i'm spiralling, then spat out      unhealthy prolongations   tragic repetitions.   it's ripping out my insides,   but i'm about to start again.