I think of the nights you couldn't sleep without the glow of the television screen   Or all of the times that I checked all the locks cause you were afraid of the dark   I called you my wife, and you called me a liar   Well, this, this is all too much      Well, I tend to commit like a blind man in a well with nothing but rope   That he hopes will carry him out   But sees no light at the top      We shared us a place   We made it a home   But I was the ball to your chain   You still have my heart   No matter the condition you leave it in      And I, I cried out to god, I laughed in my car, and I sobbed in my hands   I'm headed, headed for the end   And I can't hold a gun   How selfish I am   And I've been taught what was right, taught how to swim, been taught how to rot because of my sin   Yeah      I was, was not the first, nor the last, but the only one to mean something between your thighs   You were drunk, you were tired and lonely at the time   Could you wear your ring and not think of me?      They say that you're honest when you're drunk   So, were you honestly honest when you slept to the beat of a heart you didn't know   You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know   You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know   (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart)   You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know   (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart)      You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know   You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know   You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know   (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart)   You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know   (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart)   You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know   (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart)   You didn't know, you didn't know, you didn't know   (Beat of a heart, beat of a heart)      And I hope for the best   But there's nothing left that beats in my chest