Contradiction in my thoughts is the barrier of my life  I cannot jump that nigh to overcome  Too many hidden ways - their destination is the same  Which way is wrong and which is right    Sometimes I wish I had a choice  To end or to begin  Sometimes I wish I could live on my own    But nothing's breaking through the walls inside  All the dreams remain behind  All the voices fade away  I'm falling into nothingness of life  I don't care about the time  I don't need to understand    There's no confusion in my mind but the clarity is gone  I hope you'll never ask about tomorrow  My abandoned ship is carried by the current  I cannot fight against it and I cannot force it    Sometimes I wish I had a choice  To end or to begin  Sometimes I wish I could live on my own    But nothing's breaking through the walls inside  All the dreams remain behind  All the voices fade away  I'm falling into nothingness of life  I don't care about the time  I don't need to understand