There are things I'd like to say  that I've said too many times before  Things I should have done  instead of looking for a way to get out  You'll never know the sorrow I felt  or the hours I've laid awake  thinking about just what you said  How could you know how I felt?  I never took the time to figure it out  or see how the problems arose  I tried to blame the two of you  I can only blame myself  for the pain we felt  There are words I should have spoken  but I kept my fucking mouth shut instead  Words would've made the difference  but they always stayed unsaid  Why won't you ever see?  Why won't you even see?  It's not just me