I saw the light coming for me, an icy wind arose, I fought so hard to stay  The solitude was so close  They pushed the needle right in me  Pushed it into my head  They pushed the needle right in me  Survive what they call dead    [Chorus:]  I can't tell if I'm still alive  All I know  I feel so dead I long for life    They bend me and the broke me - They squeezed me into a form  They taught and were leading me - According to their norm    [Chorus]    With all the scars I carry with me. I don't feel alive  With all the scars I carry with me    Knowing I'm not dead