no more smile and no more outrage  apathy pervasive emotions narcoleptic  no more smiles since fucking sunday  sinking feelings drinking early stinking septic  stinking like a dream  spoken outside in outside voices  struck silent into shruddering and cold ground padded noises  sucking myself up a truth that i don't need  last nights i don't believe  no slowing down  no faces smile no lips that frown  grey to neutral every synapse  stinking thoughts a pool of dinner  wipe my mouth and hope to die  this street is cold early morning noises  this body reeling ugly early morning choices  no more drinks til fucking noon  stinking teeth and gums a blackening that sets in soon  and an all revealing smile  just falling down  won't make these hours turn around  i wish i could remember what i'm trying to forget