[Chorus: Ja Rule]  Love don't love me  Is the only thing that seems to hold me  God can you explain why  Love don't love me  Is the only thing that seems to hold me  God can you explain why    [Ja Rule]  I sit alone in my four cornered room staring at candles  Gettin hot tryin to handle, this hand that's been dealt to me  I don't need, especially in this world overwhelmed with greed  See we cut from a different tree  Y'all niggaz hope and I wish a nigga would fuck with INC  Went through the troubles and the struggle of hustlin and runnin (what)  So the ones that come behind don't' run through nothin  They would fear no man but God and do a lot of frontin  And I'm here to tell the world that pain is lovin'  Like when I die I hope it rains  Cuz if it does, that mean the lord shared them niggaz pain  Here lie our man slain  And I would get out the game if I could  But I promised all my life to my kids I'd make good  Can't stand my father and love my momma  STILL I TRY, God can you explain why    [Chorus]    [Ja Rule]  I live my life under pistol, cuz lately love ain't been a issue  With who's gone miss you, when you dead and gone  Will my name live on? Or will I be the last to die and breathe and eat  Cuz I need a little love and affection and baby  I live like every day was my last one  Dang, I've been living my life... (haha, yea)  Like I'm a leave this world unmarked, smiles combed to horror  For all them days when it rains  And it feels like thangs ain't gettin no better for me  Nobody loves me, sometimes I wish God could come down and hug me  And wipe the tears from eyes  Cuz in my heart I know only the strong survive  And I die for my family, so they can live a better life  I try, God can you explain why    [Chorus]    [Ja Rule]  I'll sacrifice my life, fuck all the dumb shit  Cuz being black and broke's gettin redundant  My grow to be a world leader like X and King  If I can live a longer than Pac and BIG  What do (?) niggaz run red, you could tell by the lives we live  If it changes it'll be God's prediction, so pain inflicted, like Jane's Addiction  Live right like Christians, but dance with the death  It's like callin' stones a devil, the road is unlevel  Still I walk through the valleys of shadows of death gasping for air  Breathe in my last breath  My daughter told me first words, my son walked his first steps  And all through life we anticipate death  And if pain is truly love, for my family I DIE, God can you explain why    [Chorus]