When the shadows washed away   I was painting larger ones   Larger than the canvases   The canvases I can’t believe      And I can’t understand when things turned gray   I’m not who I was in the morning   And there’s a million reasons that I’d like you to stay   Tried to utter the words while you’re falling      I run out the bedroom   Cause I can’t really breathe   A recurrent fear of being tied down   And I would like to blame it on the artist in me   But there’s no one there, so that’s bullshit      I’m going through girls   And pushing through crowds   And she knows I’m looking for her   And I’m going through hell   Through the darkest sides of myself   I only want what I can’t have      Run ahead   Don’t wait up   Just run ahead   Don’t wait up cause I’ll follow you there   Follow you there   I’ll follow you there   Follow the ocean   Follow you there   Follow the ocean   The road’s not far way      I only want   I only want her today   I only want what I can’t have   I only, I only want her today   I only want what I can’t have