now just where the fuck have I gone.   the days feel so old and cracked and your eyelids close-you shut me out.   got run over by your words today, and everyone's a hazy shade of gray.   and I don't know who I am anymore, don't know where I'm coming from,   don't know where I'm going to but I kinda want to hate you.   I'm screaming till my bones break, but you swear you didn't even hear a whisper.   I'm always left to pick up your pieces.   a room of gold and you see red.   what is there left that I can believe in...   this so useless so dead and so ugly your eyes so disgusting so hating degrading...   a room of gold and you see red. what is there left that I can believe in...   now just where the fuck have I gone.   the days feel so old and cracked and your eyelids close-you shut me out.   and just where did I get lost. where did you go and where have I gone.   it's back to me again.   hair as fire. eyes as sharp as switchblades breathing death into my arms.   fingers dripping scarlet... what is there left that I can beleieve in...   I am so numb. I can't feel anything anymore.   I am trapped in a shell and I can't feel anything anymore.   I am so numb. ican't feel anything anymore.   I can't feel me. I can't see me. I can't feel me...