now and forever   the moment is gone and   time runs out   then it hits you with the pain   things are great on the way up   but nobody is with you   when you re on the way down   you got what you wished for   is that what you really wanted   it's how i think of you   raining in my house      indecision   problems that took years   to build and build   and admission is to far away   life in a blackout   is like life in a storm   when you finally come out   you see that you're all alone   you got what you wished for   is that what you really wanted      the day you break is the   day you're born   then you deal with the blame   is that what you wished for   is that what you really wanted