It's been awhile,    Since I could, hold my head up high   And it's been awhile,    Since I first saw you,      And its been awhile,   Since I could stand, on my own two feet again,   And its been awhile,   Since I could call you,      And everything I cant remember,   As fucked up as it all may seem,   The consequences that I've rendered,   I've stretched myself beyond my means,      And its been awhile,   Since I could say that I wasnt addicted,   And it's been awhile since I could say I loved myself as well,   And it's been awhile,   Since I've gone and fucked things up, just like I always do,   And It's been awhile,   But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you,      And everything I can't remember,   As fucked up as it all may seem,   The consequences that I've rendered,   I've gone and fucked things up again, yeah      Why must I feel this way,   Just make this go away,   Just one more peaceful day,      And it's been awhile,   Since I could look at myself straight,   And it's been awhile,   Since I said I'm sorry,   And it's been awhile,   Since I've seen the way, the candles light your face,   And it's been awhile,   But I can still remember just the way you taste,      And everything I can't remember,   As fucked up as it all may seem, to be, I know it's me,   I cannot blame this on my father,   He did the best he could for me      And it's been awhile,   Since I could hold my head up high   And it's been awhile,   Since I said I'm sorry